I am working on finishing some blog drafts I started, but I don't know how to Edit the date, So they will post in the month I started them, dangit!
New post last night Titled The Deployment Bed Is listed in February

4 more weeks

I haven't blogged in a while. I have a million things going on, kids, school., PTA, and I have a few drafts saved, but I really haven't had too much of interest to say. Or I guess I really haven't been able to organize thought to word. It just hasn't been a priority. But tonight I had one of those moments, where emotion grabs you and makes you feel. And it had been such a long time that I felt like this, so long, that I hadn't even noticed I was missing it, and I just had to get it down on "paper".

My dad has gotten me hooked on "Parenthood". It's a great show, and the characters are interesting and its easy to get lost in the writing. Tonight there was a scene, at the end, where a couple where laying in bed together, talking about their son, when the son came in and crawled in bed with them, and it was supposed to be this perfect family moment for them, and then the husband,realizing how perfect an imperfect life can be, brushes his wife's forehead with his thumb. And I FELT that brush on my forehead. For a split second, I actually remembered what it felt like for Derek to be here with me, to touch my forehead, to FEEL him here. I was in a moment of life , happening in real time, with him. And then I blinked and it was gone.
So for those of you who want to know what going through a deployment is like. It's just like that. One minute your husband is here with you living a life, and the next minute, he is a soldier, miles away from you living a completely different life and all you really have is those moments of life you catalog in your mind and sometimes something as simple as a tv show can trigger that memory and for just a moment you feel peace and warmth and perfection. And then it's just you sitting in bed, tapping away at your netbook wondering if you even came close to conveying what you were feeling.

that "small" annoyance

Have you ever had something you enjoyed doing nearly ruined by an annoying person? The drunk guy at the baseball game, the obnoxious laugher in the movie theater, the loud talker at the restaurant. Well, this week I have had that ongoing experience and I might be at my breaking point. None of us like awkward situations, and I, for one, am not a fan of confrontation, especially with strangers and near acquaintances, but I also dont want the one thing I do just for myself ruined by an overdo-er.
So my issue is this; I go to this really awesome gym, as some of you already know. And I love it. Everyone there is fun, and we have a good time, and its a very positive experience for the most part. Except for this ONE person, who I rarely have had to train with us as they are usually in a different class. This person is a "look at me" person. Loud, obnoxious, always correcting others without being asked, talking over the other trainers, and generally a pain in the ass. This person has the attitude that everyone should be doing prescribed WOD's, and if you don't, you aren't "in". Well this person has been in my class this week, and I'm beginning to dread my workouts. I am interrupted more times than I need to be, and their is tension in the air. I want to say, " Hey, PERSON, your form ain't so hot either. And I don't care to snatch 65lbs, nor do 100 burpees in a day, nor do I feel the need to compete against a white leader board." The spirit of Crossfit is to push yourself to do better than the last minute/workout/weight. Not to push others where you cant succeed.
SO I am sitting here, still in bed, pondering if I should go to class today and face this annoyance. I guess I can at the very least drive by and see who's in the gym. Ugh. Here goes...